Green Wall: Bedroom by Zhang Xiaogang, 2009; stainless steel plate, silkscreen prints, oil and silver pen, 150 x 200 cm

Green Wall: Bedroom by Zhang Xiaogang, 2009;
stainless steel plate, silkscreen prints, oil and silver pen, 150 x 200 cm

August 22nd, very sunny, the sunshine and wind together hit on my body

I have seen your bed, but what I saw is not only about sleep; it’s not only about making love; it’s not only about various types of fantasies; it’s not only about lying down when you are tired; it’s not only about lighting a cigarette, randomly thinking; it’s not about reading; it’s not only about speaking with someone on the phone about anything and everything; it’s not only for the purpose of seeing the view outside the window for a short while; it’s not for the purpose of listening to music for a short time; it’s not only for the purpose of saying something personal to the person next to you; it’s not only for the purpose of confession; it’s not only for the purpose of deceit; it’s not only for the purpose of being removed from something; it’s not only for the purpose of allowing both feet to be raised, which makes blood flow backwards; it’s not only for the purpose of illness; it’s not only for the purpose of coldness; it’s not only for the purpose of memory; it’s not only for the purpose of forgetting; it’s not only for the purpose of reflecting; it’s not only for the purpose of calculating; it’s not only for the purpose of tucking away in your head; it’s not only for the purpose of the night; it’s not only for the purpose of giving birth; it’s not only for the purpose of being accompanied; it’s not only for the purpose of hoping to be alone; it’s not only for the purpose of lying comfortably watching one after another meaningless yet attention grabbing TV soap operas…

It’s not even for the purpose of the above dozens of personal reasons.

I have also seen depression, helplessness, confusion and anticipation. There is also something about waiting and death.

Your eyes never leave the 1.2 meter contour line, and you are always searching alongside the never ceasing questioning and doubt in your heart.

It’s just how it is, except time is changing, and though the 1.2 meter contour line is getting more and more blurry each day, it is still there.

20th, woke up at one o’clock, water, one cup of cucumber and bitter melon juice / blood pressure at three in the afternoon 119/78P95 / lunch egg and green pepper noodles 3 liangs (150 grams) (note: ”liang’ is a measuring unit, 1 liang equals to 50 grams) / dinner French cuisine, ham, meat, bread etc., 3 glasses of red wine / a total of 15 cigarettes / went to sleep at around 4 A.M.

21st, woke up at twelve, water, one cup of cucumber juice / blood pressure at two in the afternoon 117/78P95 / lunch egg and tomato noodles 3 liangs (150 grams) / dinner Sichuan cuisine, tofu, duck blood cake, potato, peanuts, various vegetables, white spirit 2 liangs (100 grams) / a total of 16 cigarettes / went to sleep at around 5 A.M.

Courtesy of Zhang Xiaogang and all rights reserved.

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